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- Youuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!.........here?-Victor
said it
I never wanted him to see me but oh well I guess was too late , I looked to
the person he was kissing because I honestly thought that person was a drag
queen or something like that , but was a girl for my surprise. I couldn’t
understand why they were kissing at the gay parade but it’s cool. Victor was
looking to me with a frightened face and
he told me:
-What what you doing here? He
started to stutter
-Well I just came here to mess
around…- awkward
-mess around? Ah don’t lie to me
Adrian, is too obvious you are a gay nerd dude
-No Victor….isn’t that…i i i …-I
couldn’t tell him that I only went to the gay parade because Nathan was Bi and
he asked me to go with him , if I told him Nathan's secret I would lose my best
friend….So I never denied that I was bi or gay.
- Yes you are HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA , oh
my God I always knew you were gay , that’s why I kinda never worried too much
when I saw you and Layla together , I knew you wouldn’t kiss her , you like
booooys , you are disgusting man….. – he was the only one laughing loud and I was there being
humiliated by him again, but now in front of many people..
Then while he was calling me gay, I
was thinking “wait a minute, he is here too, why Victor would come to gay pride
parade? And this girl that he is with actually looks like a men hmmm …I won’t
let him humiliate me.”. I started to get mad and I really wanted to hit him
again and twice harder as he did with me, I started to stare him and I was
feeling the angry in my veins but then he said it:
-Come here Adrian I need to talk to you in
private – he wanted to be alone with me and I was wishing Nathan was watching
everything so if I needed hep he would come..
-Ok – I said it - But let’s talk at
this restaurant – I said that because if he tried to hit me or do anything against
me wouldnt work, there I was practically safe.
So we went to the restaurant, Victor
was kinda nervous, he was looking to the clock ever minute so I told him to be
fast
-Ok ok listen Adrian, I want to make
a deal with you
-A deal? I said it
- Yes , a deal, I will forget that I
saw you here , I will forget that you are bi or gay and you forget that you saw
me kissing that blonde girl alright? I don’t want to fight with you anymore and
to be honest when I punched you that night was only because I was jealous…you
probably don’t understand this but I have jealous of Layla you know , couples
are like that – he smiled and touched my shoulder.
-hmmm ok?-i said it- But let me ask you one thing,
why you kissing someone if you are with Layla? You had a fight with her and you
actually accused her of cheating but look what you doing now, you cheating Layla,
are you retard? – When I said retard I immediately regretted it
-He said dude it’s a long story, you
aren’t my pal , I can’t open to you, but
I think is just hormones, I love Layla but I want to have fun too, I’m guy and I’m
young I deserve it to have some fun with another girls– he got up –
Actually you should do the same – he laughed
-Oh ok , I guess you deserve it –
sighs-
-Of course I deserve it and right now I will
take that cutie home and I will probably sleep very late tonight , if you know
what I mean -- he winked--So we have a deal uh? Never forget this …..bye Pal –he
left..
I just couldn’t believe it about
every single word that Victor told me, what a jerk , he is such a player , he
don’t love Layla , he is playing with
her feelings , argh , I so wanted to hit him , I don’t know , I just wanted to
scream of indignation.
I left the restaurant too and I was
trying to find Nathan, he was on the other side of the street waiting for me,
was already dark ,Nathan looked to me with a worried face and obvious I told
him everything that happened…
-...So yeah that’s what happened
Nathan, he actually acted like we were “pals” but I obviously never believed
-Yeah, I think I know why he did
this, he probably thought if he be nice to you then you wouldn’t tell Layla…
-Yeah exactly, what an idiot, I
don’t believe him …well let’s go now Nathan, we have to wake up early tomorrow
to go to our lovely school argh
-Yeah lets go , by the way Adrian
….Thanks for not telling him my secret , you are a true friend…-Nathan hugged
me and of course I hugged him back , I really needed that hug , I never cared
if people thought that we were a couple , sometimes a hug is enough.
Well we both went home and I was
very exhausted I came home, said hi to my family and went to sleep straight
away.
Next day was Monday , argh I hate Mondays
, I got my breakfast and walked to school , was a long walk but was fine I had
my iPod. Well when I was already at school I noticed many people was looking to
me in a weird way , i got curious I must confess , because no one notice me there , sometimes I feel
like I’m invisible , but today people were talking and looking to me , some people
were pointing their fingers in my direction.
When I was opening my locker this girl came, she is one of my best friends too and
she is emo , her name is Jennifer but we call her Jenny .
Jenny looked to me and hugged me, I never
got it why she was there hugging me without saying a word, after seconds she says:
-I’m so proud of you Adrian..- She
was smiling
-Hm , proud? Are you proud of me?
But why?
-Because you finally admitted that
you gay and look it’s totally fine by me; I love you even more now cutiepie.
-Hell no, I’m not gay, who said this
to you?
- Hm , someone spread posters like
this , look…
There had a pic of me and the words:
“Yes I’m finally out of the closest, I’m 100% boys”
I started to breath faster and faster,
I knew who did this, someone who probably spent all his night doing this just
to make fun of me, obviously was Victor, I never had doubts, but why? Damn I knew
that story about a deal was only lies, I must do something and fast.
Nathan was with Maya , she was our friend
from India and new at our school, they
tried to get all the posters and said to me talk with the principal and tell
him the story but I said no , I wouldn’t do anything , they got mad at me
saying wasn’t fair…
Was break now and many people were
still pointing their fingers to me, I couldn’t take anymore, but then I saw Layla,
she was eating alone and I decided to sit with her and talk with her…
-Layla, can I have a sit? – I blushed
when I got closer to her
-Oh, Adrian….sure…- she was shy ,
looked sad
-So how are you? – I smiled
-I’m ok how about you?- She wasn’t ok
she was very sad
-Besides the black eye and those
posters I think I’m alright – I tried to smile but was hard this time
-Oh Adrian, I’m sorry for all this,
is all my fault, that’s why I never replied you, I felt shame, I felt like I was
so mean to you and you don’t deserve this
-Ah I thought you hated me Layla …- I
smiled
- Nooo I don’t hate you , I’m just
feeling guilty for all this , Saturday after the fight I went home and I couldn’t
stop crying , I was thinking about you all the time , I never slept till 4am , I
saw your text and I felt bad I’m sorry Adrian – I saw tears on her face
-Look Layla, we need to talk serious,
come with me to the park after school? Please?
-Ok , I need to talk to you too
The bell rang, was time to come back
to our class, I couldn’t wait to talk with Layla.
The class was finally over , I waited
Layla outside , she was taking so long , so I decided to buy chocolates for me
and her . She finally came after 20 minutes, she told me she was at bathroom, I
wonder why girls spend so long time at the bathroom..
Anyways, we walked to the park and
we sat on the grass I gave her the chocolate and she smiled loads to me and I said:
-Layla, look, I don’t know how to
tell you this, but I want you to promise me you won’t tell anyone and you will
stay calm ok?
-Oh my God , what is Adrian? I’m
getting nervous, what happened?
-Calm down, we will have a long talk
now ,well yesterday I went to a party and there I saw someone , that we both
know , kissing another person…and , oh
my God , I don’t know how to tell you this…
-Adrian, just tell me please … - she
looked worried
-Ok I saw Victor at the gay parade
kissing a girl well I think was a girl…- I almost laughed
-Huh? JESUS….are you sure? Like he
told me he was studying at his friends
-I’m pretty sure Layla , I’m sorry …
- it’s impossible Adrian , look I trust
you , you are very good friend to me , but I don’t believe Victor would cheat
on me , we are together over almost a year now…he wouldn’t do this to me…
-Layla, he told me he just want to have
fun, he said he loves you but he want to be with others girls too, he think he
has rights , since he is a boy..
-Oh my God , I’m feeling sick - she
started to cry again – I don’t believe , honestly , I don’t – she got up
-You don’t believe? Then Look this
picture….-I showed her my phone the same picture me and Nathan took of him
-Adrian…its him isn’t?
-Yeah I’m sorry – she hugged me and
started to cry loud
I never know what to do or to say
when those things happen so I just got quiet, hugging her tight.We both got
quiet for a long time and then she said :
-Well I guess I will be single
tonight then…- when I heard this I started to make the Calton dance inside of
me (tv show Fresh prince of bel air)
-What you mean? I said it
-I mean how come I’m still with him?
He is player , he is ridiculous , disgusting , he farts next to me , he don’t respect
me at all , he want to do nasty things with me and when I say no he treat me
bad , he always hurt me , he is super jealous……I was blind Adrian , I will
break up with him – I was like whoooppppp in my mind of course – Adrian to be
honest , well I like someone else…- she said it
Wow, Layla was with Victor and now
she likes someone else ; Jesus help me , why? Nooooo ..why? Why she did this to
me? I fancy her since a long time and now she tells me she like another guy Oh
God…I feel like someone gave me a shot…I tried to stay calm but of course wasn’t
easy…so I pretended I was a nice friend and said :
-Ooooooooohhhhhhh , you like someone
else…well I might help you get with this lucky guy then – I winked and she
started to laugh
- You are so silly Adrian, I noticed
you got desperate when I told you I like someone else Adrian , no need to be
desperate seriously…
-hmm I’m not?- I got red
-Well to be honest I don’t think this
guy likes me , I bet he likes someone else
-Tell me who is this guy Layla , who
is this lucky dog…- i laughed
-Hm you might know him ,I will
describe him for you , first of all he is super cute , he is hot , he makes me
smile all the time , I always think about him , he is different , he don’t want
to force to do anything nasty , he is an
angel but he is such a dork haha and that made me love him even more , sometimes he
is very funny without mean it , he makes me feel special and like the only girl
in the world
-Wow this guy got the power uh
-Yeah he does , You Still don’t know who he is
Adrian? – she started to bite her lips
-No i don't.....- i looked to her and she got closer to me , looked into my eyes , smiled and whispering
she said :
-Its you Adrian…..
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